Beauty Trend Test: Wax Beads

My Facebook feed is lately filled with videos about these hard wax beads. They’re supposed to be an alternative to shaving or expensive waxing in the salons. I’m not a super hairy person, but I hate shaving and we’re eternally broke, so I can’t afford professional waxing. I decided to give them a try, as…

Day 4 of Project Self-Care

It’s Thursday, and the focus this week this far has been on taking care of my outside. I’m trying to de-clutter our living space by the end of the year. But I’m also trying to just take care of my body on the outside, hoping that it also helps me to feel better on the…

The struggle is real. A tale of catharsis.

I struggle with crippling anxiety and depression. I don’t like talking about it, but in truth, while it was mild and manageable without meds before kids, something about mom-ing has exacerbated it and made it nearly paralyzing. It wasn’t always this bad. The struggle is real. I’m 44, and I feel value-less. I am a…

Emerging from the Darkness

I’ve been a bit off the blogging grid lately, and I apologize for that.  I often suffer from extreme anxiety and depression since the birth of our 3rd child, and when I go dark, I’m going under.  I always emerge, but it’s been tougher than usual this time. So I’ve been in my dark place…

Week 14 and feeling mighty fine

Man, I do love cycling.  I seriously love being on my bike. And I can feel the changes in my endurance.  Hills that felt difficult just a few weeks ago don’t even feel like inclines anymore.  I feel stronger, happier, healthier.   I tried some new paths and even tried cycling with my kids this…

Week 13 Check-In

Mondays are weigh-in days, so first, the stats: Weight:  191.6 (-1.2 from last week) Week 13 loss: -31.4 pounds Total weight loss: -138.4 pounds BMI: 32.9 I’m still so far from where I want to be, but I’m feeling better with each week.  I feel more fit, more energetic, happier.  It’s progress, even if it’s…

Back in the Saddle:  Week 12 Check-in 

Welp,  after last week’s meltdown (and thanks for the kind words of support), I’m back in the saddle, literally. I was a bit worried about this morning’s weigh-in.  I tracked dutifully yesterday, but I indulged in both a beer (a delicious Leinenkugel Grapefruit Shandy) and and a slice of birthday cake at a picnic at…

Meltdown Monday:  Week 11 Check-in 

I’m not going to beat around the bush.   I’m flummoxed.   Confused.   Pissed.  Discouraged.   Frustrated.   So I’ll spare you the angst and just give the stats.  Weight this morning:  198 For those keeping track,  yep,  I’m up a f***ing pound from last week and I have no idea why or how….

Adapting on the Fly

9am:  drop off the twins at preschool 9:20am:  dentist appointment 9:45am:  Get call from preschool that son had an accident in his pull up.  Need to go change him.  10am:  head back to preschool and change son 10:20am:  realize it’s too late to drive to trail, unload stroller,  run/walk,  and get back in time for…

WIP Wednesday,  Healthy Me Edition

I usually reserve my WIP (work in progress) Wednesday parts for my knitting posts,  but today,  my WIP part is about me.  I started the Couch-to-5K program this week,  and completed day 2 this morning.   I have often avoided the canal paths because they can sometimes feel a bit sketchy.  But as I said…

Week 10 Check-In

Nothing much to say here, so it’s really just an update. Today’s weight:  196.4 pounds Week 10 loss: 26.6 pounds Total loss:  133.6 I went to the gym twice last week.  I wish it was more, but it is what it is. I added the matcha, 1tsp twice daily, but it’s a recent addition.  The…

Mama’s got some brand new (running) shoes

I went to Aardvark Sports in Bethlehem on Friday.  They’re such an amazing shop for runners.   My old shoes had seen more than their fair share of miles,  and I desperately needed new running shoes.  They looked at my gait,  and apparently,  I’m a mild overpronator.  This surprised me,  as I feel like I put more…